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All my grades for the spring semester have been posted. Not quite as… - Speak Friend and Enter
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All my grades for the spring semester have been posted. Not quite as high as I had dared to hope.

So basically, if nobody hears from me for a couple weeks, it's because my parents killed me as a result of me pissing away another semester. They will get another letter from the school saying that I'm on continued probation, and another semester of this will get me kicked out of school. That will be grand. I'd like to tell them myself before that happens, seeing as how I've been lying to them all semester about doing OK in school, when I knew along that I would end up having a couple big fat U's.

For the record:
INTRO TO CREATIVE WRITING  ENGL-030A-01  A  3.00 3.00 12.00 
EXPLORING WORLD RELIGIONS  HRS -137 -0   U  0.00 3.00 0.00 
BASIC MUSIC  MUSC-008 -06                U  0.00 3.00 0.00 
SYMBOLIC LOGIC I  PHIL-060 -02           C- 3.00 3.00 5.10 
EXISTENTIALISM  PHIL-117 -01             U  0.00 3.00 0.00 
PSYCH ASPECTS DEATH+DYIN  PSYC-151 -03   F  0.00 3.00 0.00 


Didn't see that F coming. The good news, I got an A in a class, and I passed the major course. Just barely, though. Not sure what happened there either. Does anyone else go through this? What confuses me most is that there is no discernible pattern that I can correct. I was always a good student, always did the work even if it killed me, had an OK year in Berkeley, did much better my first year at CSUS, and ever since then I have been floundering around. I honestly don't know what is making me do so poorly since then. If anybody out there is going through a problem like this, not totally sure what they want to do, losing motivation in classes, not really caring how bad their GPA is, I'd like some advice. Or compassion. Because I'm tired of not knowing what's going on.

I'd also really like it if instead of my parents going postal on my ass, and trying to figure out which distraction is most reponsible, that they try and help me figure out what is going on. It would seem to be the more constructive thing to do. Plus, it's not like all the yelling last time really helped a whole lot.
3 pity screws or Do me
Comments
blueblackautumn From: blueblackautumn Date: June 4th, 2001 12:28 pm (UTC) (Link)
I did worse than you.
From: ex_consequen376 Date: June 4th, 2001 02:52 pm (UTC) (Link)

Don't worry about it. School is basically meaningless, and usually only good for letting someone make as much money as possible, in their money-driven, greedy life. Maybe you're about more than money, and that's why college seems to be not working out for you. It's not what you want. Maybe you need to go do something where you'll gain knowledge, rather than learn facts that won't matter to you.

=J=
sumthinboutmary From: sumthinboutmary Date: June 4th, 2001 09:49 pm (UTC) (Link)
hey! at least we all know that u are an excellent writer...what happened to all those U's??? i had an F this sem again...i can't keep doin that shit..gotta graduate soon man...
3 pity screws or Do me