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Now I have to remember the stuff I was dwelling on earlier.....… - Speak Friend and Enter
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suffocated
suffocated
Now I have to remember the stuff I was dwelling on earlier.....

First things first. I love my Creative Writing class. Talk about boosting one's ego. I was very proud of my ballad, and apparently with good reason. My grade? A+, baby. I also got my short story back today. Another A+. I am so cool. I have to write another one by Wednesday, although today she said even Friday would be okay, which would give me a) all day Thursday to work on it, and b) more time for term papers, etc.....we shall see.
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In Psych today we were talking about, again, when it is OK to basically "pull the plug" on someone. Today's particular situation involved a woman who had suffered two CTAs (Cerebral Vascular Attacks) and had been laying in a bed for nearly a year without movement and very little outward signs of mental activeness. However, the only machine type thing she was hooked up to was a feeding tube, no respirator or anything more critical. Basically, the niece wanted to remove the tube and effectively let her starve to death. The hospice place this woman was in would not allow it, and so they went to court. The thing that swayed me the most was a letter written to the niece by this woman basically stating that after seeing her close friend go through a terrible bout with cancer, she never wanted to be kept alive like that. Personally I think that in most cases, if a person has made their wishes known, then it is fully within the rights of the family to respect and act on those wishes, even if it means a painful death. The interesting part of the discussion was when our professor brought up a child in the same situation. Would we be so quick to let him die? I believe I would need more information in that case.
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I have experienced 4 deaths in my life, each progressively more devastating to me. I can recall distinctly the exact circumstances of each one, I have a still in my mind of where I was, what my surroundings looked like, how I was informed, etc. I probably re-live a couple times a week the death of my best friend's dad/my Scoutmaster from October of last year. I'm not sure what it means that I so clearly recall these things...I had thought of something earlier but it escapes me now. Fuck.
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There is this girl in my creative writing class that I have been attracted to since the beginning of the semester, but today for some reason it was very intense. I found it intriguing because even though it's hot out today and it necessitated less clothing, she may as well have just gotten out of bed - hair pulled back in a ponytail, no makeup.....and I thought she looked so beautiful. there is also the fact that i think she is talented as a writer and interesting beyond that.

of course, i would never have the nerve to tell her that.
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I think it's hilarious when people consider themselves so open-minded because they listen to "all" types of music - you know, commercial rock radio, hip hop, house, and country. you mean that isn't all of them? what else is there????

oh, right. jazz. classical. METAL. you know, the real music. the stuff you have to actually track down and find.

being an elitist is fun sometimes.
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there is surely more. but i am damn hungry and need to start thinking bout my next story.

Currently Blasting: My Dying Bride - Turn Loose the Swans

4 pity screws or Do me
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slayergoddess From: slayergoddess Date: May 8th, 2001 03:37 am (UTC) (Link)
That was a good entry. I'm glad you did well with your ballad and stuff.. lol... that girl you described in your class... with the hair pulled back with no make up... and her writing and everything... That just shows how you can look beyond other things I suppose... I don't know what I was trying to say there.
suffocated From: suffocated Date: May 9th, 2001 08:37 am (UTC) (Link)
thanks, Torr. if you were the Norse God of Thunder's significant other, would you be Thor & Tor? that was gay.

i find it very unattractive when a girl practically puts on a cosmetic face. i find myself attracted to a lot of girls that are very sparse in that department. i like that.

i think we both know what you were trying to say there. it might have lacked eloquence, but you got your point across.
slayergoddess From: slayergoddess Date: May 9th, 2001 12:57 pm (UTC) (Link)

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Thor and Tor? What is that?... heh. I am just .... Torryness... or Slayergoddess.

Oh my, I hate that when I girl does that too!
From: starfinder Date: May 10th, 2001 12:33 pm (UTC) (Link)
Yep. I'm an elitist too. Even more so after having worked at a small radio station where everyone thought you were stupid if you listend to only a few types of music. The criteria was that you had to listen to hardcore and welcome rap, trance, hip-hop, and anything else modern. They were worse than elitists. Heads in their asses.
4 pity screws or Do me