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Ahhhhhhhhhhh, brainstorm. Geez, I think of one thing, one subject, and a whole flood of ideas comes roaring to mind. See, I was just thinking how I seem to contradict myself sometimes when it comes to expressing my unbridled love for my music of choice, metal. On the one hand, I often notice that I'm wary or reluctant to divulge to people what I listen to, and for the most part I think I have good reason - how would you react if someone told you they listen to bands like Death, Suffocation, Slayer, etc. on a regular basis? At the same time, the other part of me is thinking, this is stupid, what do I care if someone thinks there's something wrong with that? Those of us who do listen to it and understand it's place in music should be able to just blow them off. Then there are times when I'm almost gloating - for instance, my initial thought for this entry was to simply say "Look, I'm listening to something besides the Braveheart Soundtrack" but that seemed rather pointless. I love to talk intelligently about metal with people who will actually care to try and understand where I'm coming from. I know enough to say confidently that the majority of people consider metal to be untalented noise, and I've learned to take this in stride. Then there are the people who think metal is any kind of loud, pounding rock with distorted guitars and yelled vocals. It took me some time to understand it, but this is not the case. Metal, and also with some other forms of music, is more than just a sound. There is a great deal that separates real metal musicians from imitators and posers. But I'm getting way off track. The above was the first thing I thought of.

It led me to thinking about hypocrisy (no, not the metal band). Hypocrisy, like ignorance, has a really bad reputation. I've come to believe that everyone is a hypocrite in some way or another, whether they realize it or not. I guess one could say that the real hypocrites are those that think they are better than everyone else because they are never hypocritical. It's not necessarily a bad thing to be a hypocrite - actually, it can't be, since it's so widespread. I was chatting last night and the subject turned to ignorance, and I said that ignorance in and of itself is not a bad thing....only when no effort is made to correct it does it create negativity. Ignorance is more subtle, though - someone could conceivably have no clue that they are ignorant about something and it will take a great deal to convince them otherwise. I only bring it up because it's something I deal with as it relates both to my job and to my music. Being a computer tech, I deal with a lot of people who honestly couldn't tell a student driver from a printer driver, and it really starts to piss me off when they get bitchy about something they know nothing about. The worst of them make no attempt to further their understanding, and I have no use for that. Leaving the technical stuff to me is fine, but when you start to complain thinking you know more about something than I do, argh, that wears thin. I rarely lose my temper, but sometimes I wonder what it would take for me to explode.

Continuing with the idea of contradictions, I think I have a good knack for examining and understanding both sides to an argument. It didn't occur to me for a long time, but now I try to re-examine all the things I've formed an opinion on, whether out of societal convention or only thinking about it one way. Take the issue of abortion, for example. For the longest time I only saw one issue on both sides: the pro-choice people say it's a woman's decision, and the pro life people say it's murder. It suddenly hit me that there's no way to resolve this argument because the sides are arguing completely different things. There can be no middle ground when the 2 sides are miles apart to begin with. Some people might think this is obvious, but I really never took the time to look at it from different angles. Blame it on the logic course, I don't know.

I can't find my damn Overkill CD. I had it yesterday........oh yeah, it's in my changer!

Current Mood: contemplative contemplative
Currently Blasting: Dark Tranquility - The Gallery

3 pity screws or Do me
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abstracted From: abstracted Date: August 26th, 2002 11:13 pm (UTC) (Link)
What a well written entry.

I sometimes fret over how my passion for music is perceived--my love for scary, screamy feminist music tends not to be too appealing to the general public. I too often get stereotyped into the crazy manhating lesbian persona because I listen to girl-positive, queer-positive, sex-positive music.

The idea that because i listen to it, i must be it is disheartening.

I don't think metal is untalented noise.

Oh, and I'm still curious as to why you described how i spoke about music as different.

suffocated From: suffocated Date: August 27th, 2002 01:11 pm (UTC) (Link)
you'll have to remind me what i said, or at least partly, my memory sucks sometimes.
abstracted From: abstracted Date: August 27th, 2002 02:41 pm (UTC) (Link)

Re:

We were dicussing Dream THeater and I explained why I love them so. You said the way i described music was different.

I'm listening to Heavens to Betsy, another Corin Tucker project. She does Cadallaca and Sleater-Kinney as well. You know when you talked about getting lost in music.. this is one of those cds. i just want to melt into it. it affects me in a way that few others have.. i can feel myself tense up to certain parts and relax to others

i'm usually not physically affected by music. but this cd does it.
3 pity screws or Do me