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Well, it came sooner than I expected, but it was nonetheless… - Speak Friend and Enter
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Well, it came sooner than I expected, but it was nonetheless welcomed. Last night I had it out with my parents about my atrocious showing in school last semester. That would be W, U, U, F if you're keeping score. I actually got quite emotional; I never really realized how it frustrates me that I can't seem to find some direction. It bothers me, sure. But last night I was on the verge of tears trying to defend my belief that I really don't know what I want to do and there's no reason for my parents to be paying for my search. I'm going home this weekend so we can sort through things more. The good news is that when we hung up not only did I feel a lot better that it was out in the open, but my mom was very calming with me. They're not the only ones who are very disappointed in me. I just can't figure out what is causing this apparent lack of "give a shit" as my dad put it for school. It's not me at all. And yet here I am with a semester GPA of 0.00. Pathetic. But did that possibility spurn me to at least pass my classes with C's? No! And why not???? I haven't been able to answer that yet. I doubt that I will after this weekend. But things will be better, I hope.

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