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Well, I saw Traffic tonight which, if you don't know yet, is basically about drug trafficing between the U.S. and Mexico and the things that go on to try and put a halt to it, etc. The movie itself was OK, nothing majorly spectacular but an interesting social commentary. It got me thinking a little bit, though, mostly about my own opinions on the "war on drugs" and things like that. So now I have some questions for people who read my journal who can answer out of experience and not out of speculation (though you're free to do that as well, just be sure to note it). This is in an effort to understand people better and not to further some righteous crusade.

1. Why do you smoke?
2. Why do you drink?
3. Why do you use drugs?

If anyone can give me some insight into any of those I would be appreciative. I'm stumped. Hopefully it will be more than a simple answer, but we shall see.
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sweet_evil From: sweet_evil Date: April 8th, 2001 06:23 am (UTC) (Link)
I don't know if mine could be construed as anything more than simple, but here's a shot.
1. I don't smoke... don't see much point in it.
2. I do drink, but not to the extent I used to. In the past I was constantly crazed on drugs or alcohol because "I could"... My grades always stayed exceptionally high, I was always able to keep a job...and I just enjoyed the personal release from reality those two could offer. My reality wasn't that bad...but of course every teenager thinks that the world lives/dies at their doorstep. I thought that everything around me was just so "fucked up", and I wanted some alterior way to rationalize it. (also used to be a "cutter")
Now I'm a junior in college, life is running at a pleasingly steady pace, and the workings of the world aren't completely foreign and obscure to me now. For the most part I don't get innebriated often anymore... kinda lost some of the wild and craziness. I still drink socially just because it does help me open up and enjoy trivial bullshit conversations while hanging out with friends in bars and loud crowded places. Once in a while I will still do ecstacy or acid just because of the feelings of free-ness they create. Im not sure of your stance on this, your post could be read in a way that you have never done drugs, or that you are just trying to understand the appeal to others. If you have never done drugs, it's very hard to describe the new dimension that they will take you to. I have certainly done countless amounts of personal exploration in a sober environment, but sometimes it's fun just to see where my mind will go with a little added emphasis from an outside source. (drugs do not create your thoughts, they enhance the ones that you already hold)
Plus, with ecstacy, it is an insanely good feeling physically, and somewhat of a bonding experience between the people you are with because it tears down all barriers/walls and allows for complete and total trust. (something I don't give freely often)

In all... I don't/wont try to rationalize the constant use. I think thats silly. It minimizes the "special=ness" of the feeling. It also has lasting conflicts in your day to day life. (memory loss, speech patterns, relationships, finances, etc)... However, I will say that for a recreational escape from reality, once in a while, it is a definate pleasing experience.
slayergoddess From: slayergoddess Date: April 8th, 2001 06:36 am (UTC) (Link)
1. I don't smoke, and I think that would just kill me eventually and that's why I don't.
2. Don't drink, because well I just don't... although it does clean out your arteries...
3. Don't use drugs because I don't want to harm my body, I don't care if others do though...
2 pity screws or Do me